By Scott Coner
Country Artist (and
Proud Father)
Twenty years ago this weekend, my first
daughter was born. I was honestly in shock as all of the evidence of my wife’s
very large stomach finally came into fruition. You see, I wasn’t really
prepared for much of anything at that particular point in my life. I remember
the day we were to bring her home from the hospital. I was supposed to go
outside and bring the truck around to the front doors of the hospital and pick
up Cynthia and the new human that I didn’t really know very well yet. I
remember realizing I didn’t know how to put together a child's car seat and
freaking out in front of everybody as I slammed the box on the sidewalk
possibly screaming out words that didn’t match my adorable character.
My fingers were wrapped around the
steering wheel for all it was worth as we drove away from the nurses that had
been helping Cyndi and me. I looked over to my right every now and again and
could barely comprehend that this tiny humanoid was going to be part of my life
as long as I lived. We stopped at my mom and dad’s before we went home to show
my mom what I had made. We were all kind of spellbound as this tiny, skinny
little baby opened her charcoal eyes. I never saw it coming, but everything in
me melted like candlewax. This very small version of me and my wife took hold
of me at that moment and has never let go. All I can say is that I am so glad
she did. She set the stage that would allow me to feel feelings inside myself
that I didn’t know existed. The love that I have felt since that day has
continued to amaze me.
Video: Happy 20th Birthday Emi
Three years after Emily was born, we
found out that we had another little girl on the way. I remember being scared
that I wouldn’t have any love left for her because Emily Sae already owned it
all. But as I said, because of Emily, my heart had been conditioned to love the
next baby every bit as much as the first one.
I had started writing “The Perfect
Song” as I sat on our bed watching Emily lie there as I played guitar. I must
have set the song aside for quite a while, but I finished it sitting cross-legged
next to my youngest daughter Taylor’s crib. I never planned on doing anything
with the song, because it was so specifically about my own daughters. But,
Cyndi has been making this “slide-show” for Emily’s birthday this weekend with
the song as a backdrop, and I just wanted to share it with you. A lot of things
are changing with my music very soon, and I don’t know how much longer I will
be free to release little songs like this. The thing is, I know the song isn’t
something that will speak to everyone. But it might speak to you in some way. I
guess most of us have watched our kids play in the leaves or run across the
yard as the sunshine danced across their hair. Those are the moments that God
allowed me to have that I’ll always hold in my heart. My daughters have defined
the man that I have become. So, as I’m driving to Wilmore, Ky., this weekend to
see her on her birthday, I hope you can take a few minutes and allow me to
share with you the story about two little girls that have truly blessed me.
They are my “Perfect Song”, something far, far better than anything I could
ever hope to write. Happy Birthday, Emily Sae Coner. I love you.
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